My Mental Health

30 May 2018

Now, I'm not one to say I have anxiety or depression because I know I don't. But I don't deny that I am a very anxious person from time to time and sometimes that side of me can really effect me mentally and physically. I guess, others would argue that I do have anxiety but in my defence, I don't feel like I need to put a label on it as I just think I can feel more anxious at times depending on the situation. Recently, my head has not been in the best of places. I think this could be down to multiple reasons but my main concern is towards university. Uni has gotten me down and feeling quite anxious a lot recently, to the point where I can honestly say I don't really want to be there anymore. It pains me to admit this but it's true. The idea of going back to Chester in September is so incredibly daunting but I know I have to do it. I've almost finished my course, with only one more year to do and once it's done, it's done.

I guess today's post is going to be quite rambly but to be honest I'm quite happy that it is. When I look over the last couple of posts I uploaded, as much as I love them, I felt they were pretty boring. I don't want my blog posts to get boring so I'm hoping that if I share a few more honest blog posts it will make my blog seem a little more real. I also wanted to write this post as I have been haunted with these upsetting thoughts about uni and about how I have been feeling for quite some time now and think it's best if I let out all my feelings in to a blog post; be honest with you.

Something else that has been getting me down is that I have been feeling quite lonely. Which sounds crazy but even when I'm surrounded by wonderful friends, a cloud of invisibilty washes over me, making me feel lonely when in actual fact I'm surrounded by friends and family. I don't know why I feel like this sometimes but every now and then, I just feel so dull and it washes over me again. However, before I went to Egypt I auditioned for a musical with my old AM DRAM Society and I am so happy I did this. I may only have a small role but it's something to keep me occupied, allows me to make more friends and I get to do something that I really, really enjoy.
I'm hoping this summer I will get back on my feet again and hopefully I will feel a tad more confident when it comes to heading back to university. I have so much to look forward to this year; going to Disney World, volunteering at my favourite zoo, working at my favourite zoo and performing in Priscilla. It feels good, venting out to you all as I'm sure there will be a few of you that understand how I feel. I definitely want to keep you all in the loop when it comes to how I'm feeling and doing as it helps me move on from feeling upset and down. This small little post has already helped massivly.

I think I will leave this post here. I don't really know what else to say other than to thank you for your paitence when it came to me having a month break from blogging. So thank you so much.

Until next time,

Tabitha xx


  1. I can totally relate. I felt the same about uni. I loved first year, hated second and dreaded third but didn't wanna drop out when I only had one year left. Drama is amazing for lifting your spirits so it's great to hear you're involved in a production. So much to live forward to this Summer!!

    Steph x

    1. That's EXACTLY how I feel, I just hate it at the moment. At least it's over for now. Yeah, that's why I did it, it also gives me something to focus on! x